Objectively I may be doing better than my past self idk, but I guess I’m not really comparing myself to my past self but to my expected/full potential version of myself (if that makes sense) and I expect a lot of me.
Also mentally I’m doing a lot worse than past me.
You expected version should always be more than what you’re today. Not because you’re bad but because you’ll just get better anyway. Learn to be satisfied in life with little things and little improvements, those will slowly make things better.
Also I find that having little projects (in computer or real life) where you make things helps with mental health. When you build something, however minor, it gives you the feeling of accomplishment. And if you can focus on making something, solving those problems, then you are sufficiently distracted as well.
It’ll improve with time don’t give up. If on average you are better then you’re past self, you’re doing better than a lot of people
Edit: don’t give up, not sunny give up
Objectively I may be doing better than my past self idk, but I guess I’m not really comparing myself to my past self but to my expected/full potential version of myself (if that makes sense) and I expect a lot of me. Also mentally I’m doing a lot worse than past me.
You expected version should always be more than what you’re today. Not because you’re bad but because you’ll just get better anyway. Learn to be satisfied in life with little things and little improvements, those will slowly make things better.
Also I find that having little projects (in computer or real life) where you make things helps with mental health. When you build something, however minor, it gives you the feeling of accomplishment. And if you can focus on making something, solving those problems, then you are sufficiently distracted as well.