That’s kinda it.

Four years of photos, videos, notes and thoughts, recordings of my now passed dad and grandma, etc.

Last photos of my father, actually. Fuck.

Probably accidentally dropped it in the bin when I used it as a webcam one time when I was as drunk as a skunk. Then had no use for it between that and taking the thrash out. And that was a few weeks ago, so even dumpster diving wouldn’t help now.

Hell, that guy looking for his bitcoin has waster years and millions.

I guess I can manage with photos other people have, I guess. I don’t really have people to look at the photos with, so guess it shouldn’t matter.

I’d be grateful if you could make me care less about my massive — but boring — fuckup.

Edit I’m trying to list things I probably won’t miss. My notes are mostly incoherent brain farts I have over and over. And recordings of officials won’t matter as no-one cares and they’re too late for justice. Photos and videos, really. But I have no-one to browse them with so whatever.

I’ll definitely pay more attention to backing up

  • Libb@jlai.luEnglish
    4·
    5 days ago

    I’m real sorry for that.

    It may not be what you were looking for for but have you considered writing about those lost pictures that were dear to you?

    I mean, you may not have the pictures anymore (and like you I would think it’s best to not ruminate too much about that but also to start doing backups now, not some day in the future), but you may still remember some of those pictures? And that may be worth writing that down because those memories can also vanish with time and age, unless you put them down on paper (or in a computer file, if you prefer a keyboard to a pen).

    Don’t try to make literature, not yet a least, just put down (your memories of) the images as they pop into your mind, without order but with all your emotions and the memories they trigger of related events and persons. Let it flow freely, it will always be time to put some order into that later on… or to not put any order at all. The idea being to help your brain dump things without filtering anything, as this should help you get a lot more memories than what you may think you had.

    Photography, the technique of taking pictures, is 200 years old but people have managed to keep memories of their long gone friends and families, or of events, since… almost the dawn of humanity which has been around for a tad longer than 200 years have I been told. Writing said memories down is one way to do that. As is sketching and painting, which could be other options for you to explore, maybe?

    I know too well how bad one can feel because they lost all their important stuff because of no fucking backups, believe me. Hope this suggestion can help in any way.

    • Dasus@lemmy.worldOP
      2·
      4 days ago

      It’s good advice.

      But it’s loo literally a few hundreds gb. And if an image says more than a thousand words, then I’d be here writing until next millenia.

      I’m just trying to think that it didn’t really have any important pictures even if it had a lot of them.

      But yeah, I should probably write down at least what I remember from the past few years. That’s a good tip, thank you.

      Yeah people usually manage to keep their memories, usually with the aid of people to remember them with or someone to tell the memories to.

      I’ve got neither.

      So it sort of feels like even if I have the memories, they’re not “real” unless I could show someone. I might as well be inventing shit. So it’s sort of depersonalisation I’m feeling I guess.

      I didn’t even lose everything, just a lot of dumb photos of nothing in particular. But it was like serving as my memory sort of.

      Eh. I’ll get over it. Maybe.

      I just feels like I was just 26, someone hit me over the head with a frying pan and now I’m almost 40. And like that phone could’ve at least show what I’ve been doing for all that time.

      Eh. Maybe I will remove this post so as not get reminded more of my stupidity.

      • Libb@jlai.luEnglish
        3·
        4 days ago

        That’s a good tip, thank you.

        You’re welcome.

        Eh. Maybe I will remove this post so as not get reminded more of my stupidity.

        Maybe it could be very useful to someone else reading it.

        • Dasus@lemmy.worldOP
          2·
          4 days ago

          Maybe it could be very useful to someone else reading it.

          This is true, yeah. And definitely it will be a reminder for me to use better backups.