That’s kinda it.

Four years of photos, videos, notes and thoughts, recordings of my now passed dad and grandma, etc.

Last photos of my father, actually. Fuck.

Probably accidentally dropped it in the bin when I used it as a webcam one time when I was as drunk as a skunk. Then had no use for it between that and taking the thrash out. And that was a few weeks ago, so even dumpster diving wouldn’t help now.

Hell, that guy looking for his bitcoin has waster years and millions.

I guess I can manage with photos other people have, I guess. I don’t really have people to look at the photos with, so guess it shouldn’t matter.

I’d be grateful if you could make me care less about my massive — but boring — fuckup.

Edit I’m trying to list things I probably won’t miss. My notes are mostly incoherent brain farts I have over and over. And recordings of officials won’t matter as no-one cares and they’re too late for justice. Photos and videos, really. But I have no-one to browse them with so whatever.

I’ll definitely pay more attention to backing up

  • Dasus@lemmy.worldOP
    2·
    4 days ago

    It’s good advice.

    But it’s loo literally a few hundreds gb. And if an image says more than a thousand words, then I’d be here writing until next millenia.

    I’m just trying to think that it didn’t really have any important pictures even if it had a lot of them.

    But yeah, I should probably write down at least what I remember from the past few years. That’s a good tip, thank you.

    Yeah people usually manage to keep their memories, usually with the aid of people to remember them with or someone to tell the memories to.

    I’ve got neither.

    So it sort of feels like even if I have the memories, they’re not “real” unless I could show someone. I might as well be inventing shit. So it’s sort of depersonalisation I’m feeling I guess.

    I didn’t even lose everything, just a lot of dumb photos of nothing in particular. But it was like serving as my memory sort of.

    Eh. I’ll get over it. Maybe.

    I just feels like I was just 26, someone hit me over the head with a frying pan and now I’m almost 40. And like that phone could’ve at least show what I’ve been doing for all that time.

    Eh. Maybe I will remove this post so as not get reminded more of my stupidity.

    • Libb@jlai.luEnglish
      3·
      4 days ago

      That’s a good tip, thank you.

      You’re welcome.

      Eh. Maybe I will remove this post so as not get reminded more of my stupidity.

      Maybe it could be very useful to someone else reading it.

      • Dasus@lemmy.worldOP
        2·
        4 days ago

        Maybe it could be very useful to someone else reading it.

        This is true, yeah. And definitely it will be a reminder for me to use better backups.