Food

It might be an eating disorder

I avoid talking to my therapist about it because I don’t want to confront the truth.

As soon as I knew what a government was. Age 12ish

Took another 18 years for me to actually have articulated reasons why other than "feels*

Startpage (which is a proxy for bing, but… Yeah)

Early aughts Fiat Punto.

Profit splits from the corp I work at dropped.

Basically an extra monthly wage that I don’t have to put into rent.

Oh, one more addendum to this, another myth related to Corsets:

“The silhouette of the 19th century was achieved by squishing a woman’s organs to the point of death”

This was rare. Ladies were instead padding everything else. You’ll look like you have an impossibly thin waist if you’ve basically strapped a pillow to your arse and another to your tits.

That we have gotten dumber.

Or smarter.

Or more moral.

Or less moral.

Anyone who says that is trying to sell you some ideology.

If you know your history, you know humanity has fundamentally always been humanity since we started writing shit down. Possibly earlier, but then we can’t be sure because no-writing-itis.

Some of the oldest texts we have are old men cranking about the kids these days.

There’s stories of people being awful and exploiting each other. There’s stories of people taking care of each other and of their surroundings during dark times. There’s stories of people being weird little guys. We have just sorta always been ourselves.

Started recording history? Like in ancient Greece, one of the gayest cultures in all of time? Like ancient Egypt with its myths about jizz in lettuce? Ancient china with its noted love of femboys and general belief that being gay was just “a thing young men do, that is fine for them to do so long as they do their social duty of marrying and having babies”?

Maybe prehistoric society was violently heteronormative and it’s true we can’t know… But saying “cultures were strictly heteronormative when we started recording history” is fucking hilarious. Heteronormativity is if anything a modern disease caught from abarhamic religion.

The Ankle thing was less about the ankles themselves and more about how a lady (and by ‘lady’ I mean specifically rich women, who did in fact wear skirts that touched the floor in a lot of time periods) lifting her skirt implied an invitation for further intimacy while not being indecent.

My boyfriend has this trick where he pokes a hole on the top, a hole in the bottom, and then he blows and the egg just falls out.

Never managed to pull it off, I just claw at it until it’s done.

After being burned by a dozen creators, I find it safer for my own emotional well-being to just assume all things beautiful and evocative are made by someone who is secretly a terrible person.

Saves me from the disappointment of finding out later.

I’m constantly surprised when it turns out someone famous isn’t getting up to some bad shit.

The rebuttal is:

Go no contact, if she ever asks why you don’t talk to her anymore, tell her she’s a complete monster.

One of my professors in college demanded the class turn in a video production assignment as DVDs.

… This was in 2018

I was the only one in the class who even had a DVD burner (… Because I’d used it some years prior for PS2 games piracy and it was still in my storage box)

So the class bought a spindle of DVDs and I spent an afternoon burning everyone’s assignments to DVDs.

No idea what would have happened if they didn’t have a pet ultranerd like me. Like, did teach expect 'em to go and buy a USB DVD burner just for that?

An arrow pointing up at a line. Preferably with each being a different colour.

The arrow indicates movement. The line is abstract. But with the colour coding it carries the idea of ‘putting the thing into the other thing’.

The rest is learned pattern recognition. A download is a down arrow in a circle because you are taking the thing from the other thing. So saving is an arrow to a line because you are putting the thing in the other thing.

Auto-generated captions take 10 minutes to make something that a human will take 12 hours to fix.

The samesuch human could have used the samesuch 12 hours to caption by hand, the only difference is you didn’t have to pay a license to an AI provider.

Yes – And it sucks balls.

Some people in a different department of the company do work with Linux. And some get Macs.

And now it’s playing in my head

Phuck

Latin America, South and East Asia, and the natives within America itself watching White People finally realise America are the bad guys:

At school.

While the adults are doing adult stuff (fighting on the rebellion, doing science, suffering in the dystopia) the kids have learning to do.

Surprisingly reasonable?

I was terrified that entering the corporate world would mean being surrounded by people who are obssessed with AI.

Instead like… The higher-ups seem to be bullish on it and how much money it’ll make them (… And I don’t mind because we get bonuses if the corp does well), but even they talk about how “if you just let AI do the job for you, you’ll turn in bad quality work” and “AI just gets you started, don’t rely on it”

We use some machine learning stuff in places, and we have a local chatbot model for searching through internal regulations. I’ve used Copilot to get some raw ideas which I cooked up into something decent later.

It’s been a’ight.