Probably sex, for me.
I’d just do it with someone who wasn’t who I originally did it with because she wasn’t great in bed. The entire moment itself was just embarrassing for the both of us, moreso for me because of the time it last for which wasn’t long and just her seemingly doing it to get it out of the way. There was no passion in it, it was just a matter of “oh lets get you not a virgin anymore” deal and I felt it was tainted.
A friend of mine in highschool loaned me his copy in my 4th period biology class, and I finished it around 2am that night.
He told me not to read the sequels and I didn’t listen, lol, but years later the Ender’s Shadow series was closer to what I wanted.
I liked Speaker for the Dead! I can’t remember what it was about but I remember liking it.
A very different book from Ender’s Game though.