That’s kinda it.

Four years of photos, videos, notes and thoughts, recordings of my now passed dad and grandma, etc.

Last photos of my father, actually. Fuck.

Probably accidentally dropped it in the bin when I used it as a webcam one time when I was as drunk as a skunk. Then had no use for it between that and taking the thrash out. And that was a few weeks ago, so even dumpster diving wouldn’t help now.

Hell, that guy looking for his bitcoin has waster years and millions.

I guess I can manage with photos other people have, I guess. I don’t really have people to look at the photos with, so guess it shouldn’t matter.

I’d be grateful if you could make me care less about my massive — but boring — fuckup.

Edit I’m trying to list things I probably won’t miss. My notes are mostly incoherent brain farts I have over and over. And recordings of officials won’t matter as no-one cares and they’re too late for justice. Photos and videos, really. But I have no-one to browse them with so whatever.

I’ll definitely pay more attention to backing up

  • Catoblepas@piefed.blahaj.zoneEnglish
    2·
    5 days ago

    Hey, it’s better than voluntarily getting rid of something during a downsize and regretting it later (something I’ve done!).

    Remember that the importance of those photos was in your love and memories of the people in them, not the actual pixels. That love and those memories are still there, even if the exact images are gone.

    And ask yourself, are there any pictures on there that were so important my family members would have been angry at me about this? Because as painful as it is to lose something like that, they would almost certainly tell you they were just pictures and to not beat yourself up about it.

    Be nice to yourself, especially if nobody else is.

    • Dasus@lemmy.worldOP
      2·
      5 days ago

      I mean, that’s kinda my main issue. The photos were to remember. Now I might not, because a lot of the things there weren’t shared by anyone else.

      Ugh.

      I’ve had a rough couple of years and now it feels like they really got deleted as I can’t even remember what I’ve been doing and now I can’t see either.

      Haven’t used social media or backups either. :F

      Thanks still, though. My family members are dead or don’t really care about me anyway. Mostly it feels like honestly it was my personal history which is now lost because I can’t ask anyone as I was alone writing and thinking those things and now I’ve lost them.

      I’m trying to cope, yeah. I’ll be okay in a few days, thanks.